A new year.......just thoughts and feelings. nothing specific.

I was looking back on 2010, realizing....hey it is 2011! It always seems to take me most of January before the reality of a new year really hits me. Maybe it is a side effect of being a mommy to two very busy, active toddlers but the years really just come and go so fast that I can miss it if I blink.

I felt like I just blinked and now it is 2010....oops, I really did type 2010 on accident, funny no? I mean, I felt like I just blinked and now it is 2011

My children will get another year older, one of them quite soon. My oldest has a birthday in April. She will be 4! My youngest, he will turn 3 in November! A year means so much in the development of a small child. That really hits you and you are just running to keep up with them, teach them what they need to know, and have lots of fun with them trying to treasure each little tiny moment. Before I know it another year is gone and the kids have changed so much but many times when a new year rolls around I realize, I have not met all my goals, I have not changed in that area, my body is still the same, how did this happen?

Wow, another year just gets away from me and I didn't even realize it. I spend all my time taking care of the kids, the house, the husband and at the end of the day am like, where did it go? What just happened? Oh, it is time for bed? WOW Oh look, another year and is it my birthday again already? I will be 29 this year. That sounds so much older to me than 28 for some reason, maybe because it is only a year away from the big 30. I know, that is still rather young, I'm not old. But sometimes I feel old in my spirit, I have been through a lot, a lot more than I wanted to be through. Seems tragedy ages a person's soul and I have to just grow and change and learn with it. Wisdom is great but it can bring or be brought about by sorrow. Not that I am wise, probably not very, but I know things now I never did before that is for sure! The learning never ends.

I have learned a lot from many people this past year. I have such great friends in real life and on the internet that have been there for me through the years. It is amazing to me to talk to someone online and have them tell me, "Oh hey I remember you, I prayed for you and your family!". WOW, how humbling. There are a lot of wonderful people in the world you just have to keep your heart open and God sends them your way.

Some people may not ever even know how they touched my life, they may just send me a nice note one day then forget about it later. But, it matters. Every little moment matters, every giggle from my kids, every new word they learn, every time they count a little higher and run a little faster it is like watching a miracle. My little blessings, my heart running around outside my body in the form of two squealing toddlers. Even they teach me a lot, I don't think I knew what real patience was until I had children, or true, pure joy, thankfulness, awe.....the list goes on. My kids have taught me a lot and they don't even know it, they can't even ride a bike yet but they teach me daily.

Anyway, this post was supposed to be about my fitness goals, how I don't want to let another year fly by without taking the time to be consistent and get fit so I can feel great and catch up with those super fast toddlers.....maybe there is a reason God made them so fast...hm. They sure do keep me from being stagnant and just sitting around all day! Just like life this post didn't go as planned. Plans can change. It is the day to day choices that will inevitably add up and I need to keep that in mind as I think "laundry? or workout". The laundry will still be there right? Sure, it will....

So, maybe I will save the lecturing myself about fitness for another day. Right now I get to go out with my wonderful husband. Thank God for my wonderful family! Cheers!